… Go to Jamaica of course!
The sand, the salty air, a good friend, some sunshine and lots of frosty libations to make me forget the destiny of what waited for me back home. This trip could not have come at a better time. Just a few short days after my diagnosis I was headed out of the country far far away.
post diagnosis trip
Kim Miller and Me
It was as bright, sunny and warm morning heading south on interstate 85 on my way to see a customer in Union City, having just left one of my physician offices when my phone rang, for some unknown reason I glanced at the time 10:12. Oops I am running late for my 10:30 appointment. It was Dr. Fine’s nurse practioner Julie Pryor. For the life of me, I cannot tell you her exact words because I stopped listening after she said, “yes, the mass is malignant”. I said, I am sorry your going to have to slow down talking because I think I just heard you tell me I have CANCER… that’s when I am sure I heard it… yep it was the sound of the earth cracking! I remember vaguely asking her, “what do you want me to do with that information?” and then I dont remember much after that but some how I ended up in an empty parking lot wondering what just happened! His nurse practioner would not give me any details, only said that the mass was malignant and that I had to come in right away.
How did this happen…? I am a healthy 37 year old hispanic woman in the prime of my life with no family history of gynecological cancers. My only real assesment of how I got cancer… was it “spontaneous” or was it years of living in an emotionally unhealthy and stressful situation!
I spent that night all alone, in complete darkness both physically and mentally. I had only shared the news with my parents brother and my manager Melodie. It was an out of body experience, like the slow motion that occurs right before a car accident. It didnt feel real to me, like it was happening to someone else and all I realize it was my diagnosis and all that kept replaying in my head was that I was going to die and cancer would kill me.
DIAGNOSIS: Triple Positive Breast Cancer: Prog+, Estog+ and Her-2+ , Invasive Ductual Carcinoma with a 3cm tumor growing in my breast. BRACA-1 and BRACA 2 Negative.
Not all breast cancers are the same. HER2+ breast cancer cells have more HER2 receptors (a particular protein found on the surface of cells) than normal breast cells.
- Having too many HER2 receptors may make the cancer cells grow and divide faster, creating more HER2+ cancer cells
- HER2+ breast cancer is considered aggressive because it grows and spreads quickly